Sugar
I could title this “Why do I do stupid things? (Part 4)” but I’m kinda tired of the repetitiveness. And I could probably keep going until part 99. None of us want that.
So yesterday I had to go to an event that’s one of those things I visualize something bad happening at. I tried to suppress that and just trust that God would get me through it. And He did — again. Why do I still fear? God is so good to me and I keep running back to fear.
Well, one of the things I can do to help stop one of my bigger anxiety issues is to stop eating sugary junk. I should probably just cut out sugar in general.
Yesterday I got home from the event and my daughters had a couple of friends over for a tea party. They do this full-out: dressed up, good tea cups, finger snacks, and cake. Mmmm, cake. Cake means icing. My wife makes a delicious buttercream icing. It’s just three ingredients: shortening, butter, and powdered sugar.
Side note… if you leave butter out for days and then eat it you’ll get food poisoning. So how by just mixing it with sugar and shortening can you leave it out for days and then eat it and not get food poisoning?
Anyway, about an hour after I get home my wife takes the kids off to do some of their extracurricular stuff and I’m now home by myself with leftover cake and leftover icing. A good slice of cake goes into the leftover icing which has been in the fridge ’cause I love it chilled. I then sit down on the couch and eat it down. Short term enjoyment for long-term price.
The price I pay, other than the obvious unhealthiness of it, is that it heats up my body and makes me sweat. When your body processes sugar it generates heat which raises your internal body temperature. I knew I was going to have to go out that evening for cat food and other stuff. I told myself to wait until after shopping, but I didn’t.
So I take the kids to the pet store and end up running into someone I know and there I am having to regularly wipe the beads of sweat off my forehead, feeling more and more anxious with every wipe. And of course sweating more and more as my anxiety increases.
I have got to stop eating leftover icing. In fact, I should just stop eating sugar. Stop adding it to my cereal. Stop adding it to other stuff. I’ll sweat less, lose weight faster, my performance on the bike will increase faster, and just be healthier in general. And truthfully I really don’t even enjoy it after the first few bites.
So stop doing it!
